Friday, December 3, 2010

Craziness

Life has been slightly crazy around our household these past two weeks. Imagine having Thanksgiving, travel and the end of a semester for both students and teacher all in a bowl and mix it up. That is my life right now, sheer craziness.

I'm hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that next week I'll be back up on the blog. I've got a cute Children's book to share with you all too! So be on the look out.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Jingling a little earlier

I LOVE the Christmas holiday season. In the past it seems that it goes too quickly. I'll wait and wait until after Thanksgiving to take out the Christmas music, movies and decorations. By the time I have them up, it almost seems like it's over.  Couple that with the fact that H came only two days after Christmas last year, I've decided to bring Christmas a little earlier to our household this year.

We are traveling to my hubby's hometown for Thanksgiving next week. Therefore T and I will start the decorating process early next week. I'm so excited. The only thing is what do I do with my tree and a 11 month old? He's into everything right now and I don't want him into the tree. It'll take some more planning for me.

I've vowed to have the decorations put away the day after Christmas so not to meld it with H's birthday celebration. It's all exciting and daunting, but so glad to try it all out.

~Heather

Monday, November 15, 2010

Let the Holidays Flutter Away~


The holiday season is among us once again! It truly seems just like yesterday that it was almost Thanksgiving 2009. They say time is relative, but I still think it flies by much too fast.
Last year, we were expecting our second little bundle of joy just beyond the holidays. I was too pregnant and exhausted to do much of anything, including decorating and shopping. Little H came, as did his brother, 5 weeks early. I don’t think we even got out Christmas cards, let alone have the time all of a sudden to think about announcements. Looking back, I wish that we would have had a great card, with a picture of the family and my belly before our lives changed once again for the better.
Life isn’t much different now. Instead of being pregnant we now have another little guy crawling around the house and adding lots of giggles to our lives. In the midst of all the holiday excitement and planning, I need to have a wonderful and quick way to send out our Christmas cards. This year we are going to use Shutterfly. I’ve got some amazing pictures of our family to use. How quick and easy it will be to add our photo to a wonderfully designed card!
This year, this traditional mommy is going modern with colorful Christmas card. I’m so excited to see the finished product in a week. Plus I know that I will be on top of the game for my grandmother-in-law who likes to get her cards early. She’s been known not to display the cards that come in late each year! But we’ll save that for another time.
Take a peek at some great ideas over on Shutterfly—
·      Thanksgiving Cards
·      Christmas Cards
·      Photo Cards
·      Thank You Cards

Hugs~Heather

Book Reviews

I am so excited to announce that I will be participating in Blogging for Books. My first review, a Children's book, will be sometime next month. I am just thrilled to be able to take part of my love of teaching and reading and sharing it with you all!

Keep your eyes peeled for the first installment :)
Love, Heather

Friday, November 12, 2010

Shopping!

Who doesn't like to shop? Really?

Well over the years, I love to do some major shopping but feel exhausted and ready to never see a store again after the day is over. Since I now have two boys, it makes it slightly harder to run all over town to get good deals. Not to mention you never know if what you want is available when you go.

I just found a great shopping site that has amazing deals almost daily. Little H hasn't even worn shoes yet but with his persistance to wanting to walk, it's about time. Thankfully, Rue La La has some shoes that are perfect for him! On sale for $14 and with my credit I was able to get them for less than $4 shipped. So excited for them to come in the mail.

Check them out and enjoy the shopping! What a great way to get some Christmas gifts while you are at it.

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Decisions

Here I am coming to the end of another semester. Only one semester away from graduating...again. This degree has really bitten me. It's been rougher than usual. It probably has something to do with the fact that it's in a completely field.

I've asked a couple of my dear friends to please remind me not to start another degree until we've had all our kiddos. Yet, I feel that draw again to the education field. Learning more about my passion is well...a passion.

Running from teaching, education and the likes isn't going to make my life any easier. I think in the long run it will make it miserable. So though I am trying to fight the urge to sign up for my last degree until I've had substantial time to relax from the years of college I've been through, I'm pretty sure I'll still head back in that direction.

In the mean time, it's truly time for my Children's books to get completed and sent out to publishers. I'm excited and nervous about the journey. They have literally been a dream for a good 15 years. They've evolved the more I've taught and are now ready to come to fruition. It's time, time for another adventure.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Halloween Fun 2010

H's first Halloween we all got dressed up and trick-or-treated our way through my parent's neighborhood. It was fun for T who kept saying "I love going to people's houses but my legs hurt!" At least he was worn out by the time we got done!

Then it was time for our usual Halloween pizza dinner. Actually, it's just pizza but it's a tradition I started when T was just a few months old at his first Halloween. Enjoy our family pic, it's the first one we've all had together since Easter and I love it!

Dinner

The other night we had dinner with my parents. The boys love to see them even if it's for a short time. So we all headed over to Steak & Shake to grab a yummy dinner.




My little munchkins just love it all and I love being with them through it all :)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Crawling or Walking?

Little munchkin has decided that crawling just isn't quite good enough. At this age we are still working off the premie time-line which means he hasn't quite reached the 9 month mark yet, though in real-time he just turned 10 months. Confused yet?

Anyways, H began really booking it around the house oh, last week. He follows us wherever he goes. The gate is now part of the household attire and part of the squish-your-face-on-it-because-I'm-really-sad-that-mommy-is-in-the-next-room routine. Tuesday I found him sitting comfortable on his knees trying to reach some things on a higher shelf. The next thing I knew H was pulling himself up on me and the automan. Too much too soon for this mommy! At this rate he'll be walking before his first birthday. Be still my heart.

Forgive the blurriness due to his active movement, but you've got the picture to prove he's well on his way to chasing his big brother around!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Realization

After several days of freak outs over a specific situation, with God's help, I've had clarity today. Laying it all out for him to take care of took a lot. I still have no idea where it's going to go, but FINALLY giving it to him, not just saying it, but truly doing it feels good. He's the one who honestly and truly keeps everything in order, even when it seems to all be chaos.

Part of the clarity has brought a realization. I'm not comfortable with speaking of how I came about the realization, but it popped into my head after mulling something over. Over the course of my life, I have felt quite comfortable with my decisions. Some decisions come rather quickly, others come after weighing all the options.

Throughout my life there have been many key moments where I have questioned my decisions due to an outside influence and changed my mind. Looking back if the decision had been stuck to, certain aspects of my life would be different. Well now, I need to get back to my gut feelings. I put God into every aspect of my life and decisions so in a way I am doubting Him when I go back on decisions and feelings. Its time to trust God in everything!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

An Artist in the Making

Little T has always been slightly ahead of the game with his fine motor skills. Albeit I have been quite reluctant with scissors, so he has some catching up to do in that area. Which by the way, he is more than willing to take on.

In the meantime, he has taken his love of drawing to an all new level. Here is one small piece of his masterpiece in our bedroom. Mind you, his drawing ALL over each wall in our bedroom was connected by a "road"...which we realized was connected to more drawings in the hallway. His intent of connecting them to his bedroom as well was thankfully thwarted early enough.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

My two pumpkins

Having two boys now makes me happy on so many levels. One of them is the sheer fact that I can dress them identical, even though they are 3 1/2 years apart. At some point T will out grow it all together, but until then I'm going to get as much in as possible.

Here are my two amazing, God sent, pumpkins!

Monday, October 18, 2010

A walk can tell a story

About a week ago, my hubby's "new" (new to us) truck's brakes went out on his way home. Thank the Lord He brought him home safely. Since then we are down to one vehicle again. Honestly, I'm more than okay with one vehicle. It's only been two months where we've had two in well over 4 years. The only concern is having to take T to his speech therapy twice a week at the school for half an hour.

Instead of taking hubby to work, I got out of my comfort zone and decided to take the double stroller on a walk. With half an hour before having to be at the school, I loaded up the kiddos in the stroller, said a prayer of safety and marched down the street. H loves the outdoors but in the area we live in (break-ins during the day light hours too) I'm not too enthusiastic about hanging out outside.

T shouted, "This is a great idea Mommy! Let's get an Icee afterwards!" Though the Icee sounded perfect, it was in the opposite direction and on a busy street. Instead we did make it to the school 20 minutes early so we headed directly across the street to Walgreens and purchased a sprite. H on the other hand held onto the cup holders with his cute little fingers and laughed the whole way there.

While waiting for T to get done, H played with his toys in the stroller, laughed at kids and adults walking by and I so thankfully finished writing a test for my students. We headed home and I am so thankful for the fresh air, time with my kiddos away from the house, getting some much needed exercise (which I am paying for already--but will get better over time) and getting more accomplished than normal. Most importantly I always feel very refreshed by God while I'm outside in nature.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

This Weekend

This weekend we spent a lot of time together! How I love seeing all my boys at the same time and it's all quality plus quantity. "Heart!"

This weekend I began watching the Food, Inc movie. After the first few minutes it showed some little baby chicks going up a conveyer belt in a factory and then drop off. Though I was watching it while T was playing he stopped for a second to see the tv and almost began crying. Promptly the tv was turned off and my hubby and I watched the show together later. Afterwards we both vowed to eat healthier and change the food we buy. Once we are able to actually afford to do so, we will be purchasing locally grown and bred (organic) meat and veggies. In our next house a garden will go in as well. I remember reading The Jungle in high school English class and somewhat thought of this in the same terms. There is something wrong with the way food is going about being processed and it just isn't healthy. It's hard enough to stop eating sugar and fat, but add other chemicals to foods, no wonder our health is in dire need of help!

This weekend I caught up and fell behind and caught up again on laundry. It's all nicely washed and folded again, but will need to be put away tomorrow.

This weekend I finished two assignments of oh 13. Yea, still have a ways to go. That doesn't count the two whole classes I've done nothing with but listen to the Bible on ITunes.

This weekend my little 9 month old H has begun to book it all over the house. He's now too fast for me to leisurely get up from the couch and get him before he gets into something. The gates are up, the toys are arranged to keep him squared in and big brother has no problem letting me know when H is up to no good :) This is where the energy for myself really needs to start flowing and where I know my daily exercise will increase.

This weekend I also realized that the "no" and light booty tap (really light because those cloth diapers are quite thick) is coming back to the household. Laying the foundation of consistency now before H gets too old will make for a much easier and smoother ride in the future. Because then all I have to do is have "that look" and he'll know. Of course at the age of T I'm having to restructure discipline slightly. He is a huge structure boy. If things are changed slightly, he breaks down. So I have to keep things as consistent as possible. Nap time at 2pm--any later then the rest of the evening is chaotic.

Speaking of sleep, I must get some! Love the quiet of the house at this time of night, but I've got to have energy to enjoy the kiddos in the morning :)

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Refreshing

Though I would have much rather curl up and hide in the house last night with the insurmountable heaviness I was feeling, little T wanted to go to church. He loves it and I would have it no other way. Yet I was just in too much pain and numbness to go.

So I packed the kiddos up, since my hubby needed to be home to rest for the over time he was blessed to get this week! (Yea!) Dropped the kiddos off at their respective places and headed to service. I got my coffee, talked to a colleague and then awaited what I hoped (but wasn't sure) would be a refreshing.

Thankfully, God worked in the praise and worship part of the service. I was ready for the message! God had other ideas and used the songs and His presence there as my refreshing. Baby H decided that his teething and usual snuggle time with Mommy was just too important for the nursery workers. I headed down to a sobbing H and took him to the foyer. We snuggled, we played with his toys, we listened to white noise and then just gave up. His big brother wasn't quite done in class but we still picked him up early.

I am really thankful that even though I wasn't 'there' for the message that God still helped to refresh me. The things and circumstances haven't disappeared or gotten better...yet...but His hand in my life is still there. Just needed to hear it from Him.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Broken

These past few months has been one of the most trying times in my life. I feel deconstructed, pulled apart, crumbled and the list could go on. So many things have gone on and I try so hard to just wrangle it all in, but it's wearing down on me, majorly.

I feel alone. I feel like what happens in my life is so inconsequential to what others are going through yet I'm broken. I can't think clearly. My imagination has always been quite active which I think helps out a lot in studying and my daily life. Yet I can barely read two pages of my textbooks. I barely dream anymore at night.

Our life is falling apart financially. The bills are mounting and there is absolutely NO room in our budget for food or gas for the cars or emergencies. There are times where I just cry because I "thought" that I'm doing everything I'm suppose to. So I even question God. Why am I here? My purpose seems to have vanished. I'm struggling and I'm alone, even though I'm not because of my dear hubby. But life goes on, even when I'm not sure what the next moment will bring.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

It's the little things

A couple of weeks ago, we put up the baby swing. Little H is just too big for his age and really doesn't care much about sitting in a swing anymore.

Sunday, we put away the baby tub. H is now sitting in a 'dish pan' tub in the bathtub. He can move his little legs all around, splash, practice sitting up and hanging on to the edge. It's too cute and much less room.

Today, I realized that his tummy time mat (and play yard) is really not being used much. He's to the point where he's practically crawling all over the floor.

I can't believe we are to this point already! Parts of me are excited that he's growing and parts of me are sad that he's passing these stages. Honestly, I don't remember this with our Mr. T. I remember being ecstatic that something new was happening. This time around, it's tugging at my heart...

Monday, September 20, 2010

New Thoughts

This past Friday was an event that changed my thoughts of life.

My dear hubby and I were watching a movie. He began laughing and it somehow, probably due to our colds, turned into coughing. The coughing then turned into a moment that I will never forget. Only with God's help, has the image been blurred in my mind. Hubby's face turned a horrendous shade of purple, he bit down on his tongue and other such things. So many things ran through my mind, but mostly I thought that I might be losing him forever.

By the grace of God, we quickly came out of it. Though it didn't seem, he had actually blacked out during the episode and had no clue what happened. I on the other hand was quite hysterical, but so thankful he was awake and breathing!

I immediately called my mother to come over to stay with the boys (who were in bed sound asleep unaware, thankfully). Hubby and I headed to the ER because I wanted a full run down on him. After an EKG, blood work and a chest x-ray and about 4 hours later, we were done. It all boiled down to the fact that we each had, and still were, sick with some type of cold. The coughing fit sent a specific nerve to take over where his oxygen and blood didn't circulate as normally. He blacked out and supposedly, according to the doctor, is quite normal. All his tests came back just fine and other than having bronchitis, he is just fine!

I thank the Lord over and over again that he continues to bless us! Though during the questionable time I realized a few things. First of all, my love for my bestest friend in the whole world is still number one for me! Next, what would I do without him? My kiddos wouldn't have him at all. Then, financially I would not be able to be home with my kiddos without my hubby. We have nothing set aside, we have huge student loans and we want to home school.

Being in school for myself, teaching outside the home, all of that has been put on my "I don't even care list now." I only care that I am here 100% for my kids and for my hubby. Nothing else matters to me!

As for a 'career' and getting us financially in the place we need to be? My business is going to take center stage aside from my family. God has placed this business in my life 11 years ago and now I know without a shadow of a doubt it is time. Time for it to take flight without ever letting go of my priorities. SO EXCITED!

Now it's time to complete the school work and teaching work I have to finish this school year. I have to push through the temptation to throw it all out the window. Only with God's help can I complete it!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Homeschool

After lots of thinking over the years and more recently. I am so excited to say that we will probably be homeschooling our little guy next school year. Now starts the curriculum process!

What has kept me from the absolute thought of it recently? Fear. I am overwhelmed lately with all the things I am doing. So much so that I'm not even sure if I can do it all. I'm teaching (on-line and independent study) 15 credit hours, taking 12 credit hours, doing two other jobs for the college, getting my business going and trying to make my stay at home mom job the number one priority. Where would I fit homeschooling in?

Then I realized it is just for a season of my life. The classes for myself will end in the spring. The teaching is suppose to end in the spring. But even if it doesn't I have the on-line course work put together and it will be all that easier, than now when I'm starting from scratch. My business will be past a certain hurdle and I can just work it a couple days a week--at night.

I can't even begin to explain how excited I am to put all my knowledge to to use in my home! Excited for all the new adventures, adventures in homeschooling!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Camping 1.0

This weekend we took our first camping trip. There's a lake about an hour away that we've never been too. A friend of my hubby's told us it's a great place to camp and they do it often. So we borrowed their tent and hit the road.

Did you know that:
1. It's hot outside even in September
2. The ants in the woods are HUGE!!! I thought I despised little black ants...
3. Camping is not cheap, especially the first time you go
4. Tents take forever to set up and take down
5. Daddy Longlegs are really gross in the woods. They have red bellies instead. (If they are not daddy longlegs please don't tell me!)
6. Having to maintain the pit fire while my hubby and oldest son, T, went fishing made me cringe. I am just not good at that kind of thing.
7. While waiting for the boys to return I imagined a snake slithering outside my tent and pocking it's head into the flap. So I immediately zipped up everything I could to save ourselves.
8. I prayed for the rain storm that was suppose to come because it was so stinking hot out there. (Upper 80s isn't bad except I'm in a/c all day everyday at home...)
9. Only used the restroom once while we were there. That is a major feat for me who always (and I'm not being too dramatic here) always has to go!
10. The air mattress we bought was clearly smaller than the Queen size it stated. Not to mention when you sit on it, you sink to the bottom. 
11. We've decided unless we have a camp spot with electricity or a camper, we are not going camping again for a loooong time. My suggestion is when the kiddos are in their teens and we go in November when it's cooler and the bugs are hibernating.

Unfortunately, we only made it about 10 hours camping. We were all excited, got everything set up, the boys went fishing while myself and H took naps and then our experience was over. We all felt yucky, wanted a shower and to be in our cool home.

We packed up our vehicle during dusk and headed straight home. Two days later only a fraction of the vehicle is unpacked. I've still got to get the fishing poles and some camping gear out of the trunk. We are all feeling a bit under the weather, but enjoyed our "first" camping experience as a family.

The Jeep also enjoyed it's first outing in it's natural setting. It's like it was made to live out there in the woods. So pretty, but I know it's happy to be home as well!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My mind is yucky!

This evening is night I was my son's diapers. Yes, we do cloth diapers and I do love them!

As usual, I went into the laundry room, took out the diapers. The covers were hung up to dry and the inserts put into the dryer. While I was separating them I thought one insert looked a little dirtier than usual, but since I didn't use extra detergent this time around it would be close to normal. Then it hit me, had I even washed them? Yes, I had done the rinse cycle, but did I even put detergent in? No, no I didn't.

What made it worse was I actually smelled an insert on the way to the dryer. I now want to scrub my nose off.

The joys of laundry and having too much on the mind to not even know if the laundry is clean before drying it!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Faith

Faith is a subject that is taught quite a bit in the church. Obviously, it's the basis for our trust in God and all that he is. I've grown up in church and have made it my basis for my life. Without God, I truly don't know where I would be today. What would I be doing today? Would my life be even half of what it is?

Last week I felt strongly for the first time to just wait on God for an answer. The first day was rough. I admit it, but it kept me seeking Him for an answer. Then it was as if I was to continue to wait day after day until the answer was to be made. I agreed. Then on day three it was as if God said 'it was done.' The seeking Him and His answer was to come and I could continue my life as normal.

Let me be clear. I didn't "hear" God audibly, nor did He write His words down on a piece of paper. It was that I felt compelled to take a certain time of my day and just listen. Let other things be on the side (tv, reading, etc). Then there was a peace after wards.

It wouldn't be until yesterday when we truly had the answer. It was such an amazing feeling! Though the answer wasn't exactly as we would have liked, it still has blessed us and we are extremely grateful. God has this timing thing down and along the way he teaches us to be faithful to Him. Without faith we can't truly let God into our lives. He wants to do more and we must trust Him with every little detail.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Struggling with Discipline and Childhood

As my gets older and older, I'm finding myself struggling. Being a former elementary teacher I'm quick to keep children on task but still make life fun and enjoyable. Yet there are times that I'm not sure it always translates really well to the home.

Keeping T on task is not a problem. The struggle I'm feeling is where does my teaching him to become a great person meld into him just being a kid? I want him to have fun without always having strict structure. Sneaking on the bed and jumping up and down. Eating a Popsicle outside in the summer. Some things that are part of being a kid!

In the near future we are taking our first camping trip as a family. Well, technically it will be my first camping trip--ever--as well! I'm nervous because of the bugs, the sleeping in a tent thing and so on. Pretty much I'm a stay inside and enjoy tv or games or whatever instead. Yet I think this is another aspect that T and H need to experience in their life. It may be a little early (4 years old and 8 months old) but they will have these memories of their childhood forever.

Monday, August 30, 2010

A 4 year old's wisdom

Having taught day care, elementary school and then on to high school and college, there are those days where I've forgotten how wise a little one is.

My four year old just comes out with the funniest and true things throughout the day. He will do a total rundown of what is expected of his day. T will ask what day it is and say "Oh yea, today we will..." Wish my mind is always that fresh!

Now the biggest decision he is making these past few days is his toothpaste. Unfortunately we have an over abundance for him. I tried to be the good mom and wait until he could spit his toothpaste out (and not swallow it) before giving him some with fluoride. Well, his first dentist visit resulted in me being terrified that he shouldn't have anything with fluoride until he's at least 6 years old. We rushed to the store and picked up more toddler toothpaste. Now that it's almost gone I can't tear myself from finishing off the first three tubes we have sitting in the closet.

T came to me this afternoon and asked if he could brush his teeth. Boy was I excited to hear that! He said "I've been waiting to use my Toy Story toothpaste, so then I can watch Toy Story. The train toothpaste is for when I watch Mickey Mouse (he remembers MM with a train)." How logical is that!?! And a little scary, because he sounds just like me, slightly picky. And I love it!!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Rainbows

Wednesday evening church came this week as usual. Dropped the kiddos off to their respective classrooms and left to get our coffee and snack before service started. Part of the joys of being in a bigger church, but not too big I might add, is that Wednesday night there are wonderful choices. Either it's a night of prayer in the chapel, a night of choir practice in the main sanctuary or in our case a night of service with the "younger" crowd. Okay, so when I say younger crowd I mean most people under the age of 60. It's hip, it's fun, it's a time of fellowship with preaching. There I go again, sounding like I'm hip and fun! I'm in my early 30s and get to hang out with hip and young students and hip and older friends, with everyone else in between.

I noticed as I was refilling my coffee that the sanctuary was being used differently than the usual choir practice. The Christian and American Flags filed in. Then it hit me--the Stars were being crowned. For those of you not aware. The Stars is a girl's group (where the boys are in Royal Rangers) that meet on Wednesday evenings. The girls are in Kindergarten through 5th grade and if they choose at the middle school level can continue in the group or go to youth. If a girl has completed a specific number of memory verses, projects, research and so on, they get "crowned" at the end of their learning.

Since my oldest is 4, he is in the group that is part of the kids club called Rainbows. He earns badges and is able to do all the fun things too. At his age the boys and girls are split up until Kindergarten when they go to either Royal Rangers (think Church Boy Scouts) and Stars (Church Girl Scouts). It immediately flashed in my mind that possibly he would be in there for the ceremony. So I sneaked over, like any good parent and stuck my face to the window in the door. Well technically, I had to stand on my tippy toes to look in... There he was.

We ditched our yummy coffee just in time to see our little T make it on stage to sing the club song.



My how adorable he is. Unfortunately he either forgot the words or just never really learned them. (Honestly, I don't sing the Rainbow theme song around the house so it hasn't sunk in his mind yet.) Instead of singing with the other kids, he stood there and swayed his head to the music with his eyes closed. Such a T thing to do. Then he saw me! He stood there and smiled and wanted to be with me. My heart broke when he realized that he was going back to the classroom without me. But he had fun and we loved seeing his first "performance."

Thursday, August 26, 2010

The beginning of school

Yes, school has begun! My oldest is one year away from starting kindergarten and I think I've passed along the enjoyment of school.

My hubby and I are still in the process of deciding whether we will send our kiddos to public school, a christian school or home-school. It's a rough decision on so many levels. I don't want my kids to miss out on the enjoyment of school that I loved so much. Yet at the same time, things are changing out there. All our kids can learn just as much if not more from being home-schooled. Obviously I'm qualified enough to teach him. Knowing his strengths and weaknesses, with one-on-one time can really help the learning process to go farther and sink in much more.

While we are deciding, T (my oldest) will "begin his school year" here at home on Monday. He even starts back to his speech classes with the school system twice a week on Monday. Then in another week, music lessons on his teeny tiny violin. Life is about to be all scheduled out! And no one is more excited than myself and T.

Monday, August 23, 2010

What a weekend

My hubby and I are sitting in our living room trying with all our might to get things accomplished with school and work. (Technically mine are entangled, they just flow together.) The difficulty is that we've had a few blows over the weekend. Both quite hard on us emotionally. One will be confirmed likely tomorrow, but that is to be kept between us and our parents for now.

The other is the loss of a dear friend. My hubby has known him since his youth. A mentor, a Christian Father figure, someone who was always there when questions needed to be asked. He so generously did our premarital counseling and continued to counsel us on other issues throughout our 13 years of marriage.

It's a tough blow to not only us but the hundreds, yes hundreds of men and women who knew him. We would be traveling and literally find someone who knew him. The world was never too big, he knew and remembered everyone's name! Of course the roughest will be on his dear wife, daughter and son-in-law. I cannot, nor do I ever want to imagine losing my bestest friend, my hubby. I'm sure age doesn't make it any easier. Thankfully, they just celebrated 36 years of marriage and had a wonderful vacation last month. So thankful that they were able to spend time together not just away from it all, but made it a priority to do daily.

A lot to learn from him. We will continue to grieve, but also continue to learn lessons from a great man. God has taken a truly wonderful man and brought him home!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Commas, Capitals & Crankiness

This semester is already proving to be a busy one. And it hasn't even started yet!

I'll be teaching three extra courses this coming semester that is new to me. I am more than thrilled. It's just going to take some more hours the first semester because of all the extra work. Picking out textbooks, writing syllabi, designing power points and getting tests together. Honestly, I enjoy it all. Yea, I'm somewhat of an education geek.

In knowing that I've got all this new stuff to set up, there is a chance that I will get a little less sleep. Here's to hoping that crankiness won't settle in but just keep on moving. In the meantime, vitamins are on my grocery list, sleep is on mine and the boys daily list and exercise will be a must. Have to keep the blood moving!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Flooding

Today, I've been flooded with emotions. It's all hit me at once and I'm not quite sure where they have come from.

I'm exhausted, my house is slowly becoming a mess (which for me is hard to allow), work is piling up around me, physically I'm exhausted (did I mention that already), obstacles have come in the way of some business goals and a hint of selfishness has settled in.

At this time I don't want to go into the selfishness stuff. But you probably know how it goes. You look at someone else's life and wonder, "Why hasn't that happened to me?" I absolutely LOVE the people and things of my life, but I am only human and have my moments. Thankfully it doesn't last long, but I feel horrible that I even have those thoughts from time to time.

I'm off to try and accomplish something around the house before heading to be. Good night blog world. Enjoy the rest!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Another School Year

Another school year is about to begin. Though I'm not teaching at the elementary, or high school for that matter, level anymore I do enjoy all the hub bub of the beginning of the year.

My life is measured in school years. I have to literally take a step back when talking to someone other than a teacher about years and think about a year as in calendar year. Almost takes a little too much time to do that!

A favorite, probably THE favorite, store of mine is the local teacher supply store. Now once again since I teach at the college level, I don't get to grace it's doors as often. But when I do go, I can spend hours in there. Hubby always has that look like, "there is no way I am going with you there, because I will never see the light of day again" on his face. So usually I'm fortunate enough to step in by.my.self...no kids, no hubby, just me and the supplies!

This year, my teaching load is down due to low enrollment, but I am happy to say that God still provides for me to be at home with the kiddos AND be able to teach courses. I was just handed three on-line courses to teach in addition to the four independent study courses and one practicum for my students. So EXCITED!!!

Another list, but I love lists! Here are the things (tangible and non) that bring up wonderfulness about school to me:
  • Yellow #2 Pencils-sharpened
  • Chalk and Chalkboard (which I can't get enough of...especially since marker boards are becoming a staple in the classroom)
  • Xeroxed worksheets
  • Teacher Manuals
  • Children's Books
  • Bulletin Boards
  • Crayons, markers, scissors, glue...
  • Plaid and Argyle patterns (on anything really)
  • Calendars
  • Suzy Zoo, Mary Engelbreit and Jan Brett
  • Grade Book (though we now must put the grades into computers)
  • The smell of the school--a clean school :)
  • Backpacks
Really the list could go on and on. I absolutely loved every single class I've ever had. Well except that one in college--but truly I heart school as much now as I did as a child.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Image

Through this past year, I've been on a roller coaster emotionally. Many of you know the struggles we've been through and the joys we've been through. It's definitely taken a toll on me emotionally as well as physically. I haven't been able to do much physically due to a couple surgeries. Then it took time emotionally and mentally to get back into the game after being released physically.

In all I've found that I look at myself and feel like a teenager again. The self image I have of myself isn't all that positive. Though I know that the only person to change myself physically and mentally is myself. It's been hard. I don't want pictures taken because I'm afraid of how I will look. Yet the thoughts in the back of my head keep telling me that my children needs pictures with mommy. They also need a great womanly-Godly role model who will teach them what their future wife should be like.

So I've taken it to heart. There's a lot for me to do to change my thoughts towards who I am. The need to get physically, mentally, and emotionally fit is a huge must. It's time! In my first attempts, is taking a long hard look at myself. Yes, on how I talk about myself, but also physically.

Here are a few photo captions to see myself as the woman I am today.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Being HAP

Being HAP is discovering who I am along life's journeys. To those who know me, HAP is my initials. The initials that sum up a lifetime til now and a lifetime ahead. This is being HAP:

  • A wife, mother and teacher
  • reading a book paired with a hot beverage (tea, coffee or hot chocolate)
  • plaid and argyle
  • stringed instruments
  • color blue
  • school supplies makes my heart skip a beat
  • Victorian homes
  • old movies or romantic comedies
  • English
  • American
  • artistic and creative
  • writer
  • collector of purses
  • eclectic
  • smile when seeing and hearing my children
  • my heart belongs to only one and forever will
  • Living my life to hopefully please my Lord and Savior
 the journey continues...

Friday, August 6, 2010

Looking Forward to Yesteryear

Through these writings I'm excited to say that I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me and my family. So many things going on and so many things to share! Let's look forward to what will be our yesteryear!