Thursday, September 23, 2010

It's the little things

A couple of weeks ago, we put up the baby swing. Little H is just too big for his age and really doesn't care much about sitting in a swing anymore.

Sunday, we put away the baby tub. H is now sitting in a 'dish pan' tub in the bathtub. He can move his little legs all around, splash, practice sitting up and hanging on to the edge. It's too cute and much less room.

Today, I realized that his tummy time mat (and play yard) is really not being used much. He's to the point where he's practically crawling all over the floor.

I can't believe we are to this point already! Parts of me are excited that he's growing and parts of me are sad that he's passing these stages. Honestly, I don't remember this with our Mr. T. I remember being ecstatic that something new was happening. This time around, it's tugging at my heart...

Monday, September 20, 2010

New Thoughts

This past Friday was an event that changed my thoughts of life.

My dear hubby and I were watching a movie. He began laughing and it somehow, probably due to our colds, turned into coughing. The coughing then turned into a moment that I will never forget. Only with God's help, has the image been blurred in my mind. Hubby's face turned a horrendous shade of purple, he bit down on his tongue and other such things. So many things ran through my mind, but mostly I thought that I might be losing him forever.

By the grace of God, we quickly came out of it. Though it didn't seem, he had actually blacked out during the episode and had no clue what happened. I on the other hand was quite hysterical, but so thankful he was awake and breathing!

I immediately called my mother to come over to stay with the boys (who were in bed sound asleep unaware, thankfully). Hubby and I headed to the ER because I wanted a full run down on him. After an EKG, blood work and a chest x-ray and about 4 hours later, we were done. It all boiled down to the fact that we each had, and still were, sick with some type of cold. The coughing fit sent a specific nerve to take over where his oxygen and blood didn't circulate as normally. He blacked out and supposedly, according to the doctor, is quite normal. All his tests came back just fine and other than having bronchitis, he is just fine!

I thank the Lord over and over again that he continues to bless us! Though during the questionable time I realized a few things. First of all, my love for my bestest friend in the whole world is still number one for me! Next, what would I do without him? My kiddos wouldn't have him at all. Then, financially I would not be able to be home with my kiddos without my hubby. We have nothing set aside, we have huge student loans and we want to home school.

Being in school for myself, teaching outside the home, all of that has been put on my "I don't even care list now." I only care that I am here 100% for my kids and for my hubby. Nothing else matters to me!

As for a 'career' and getting us financially in the place we need to be? My business is going to take center stage aside from my family. God has placed this business in my life 11 years ago and now I know without a shadow of a doubt it is time. Time for it to take flight without ever letting go of my priorities. SO EXCITED!

Now it's time to complete the school work and teaching work I have to finish this school year. I have to push through the temptation to throw it all out the window. Only with God's help can I complete it!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Homeschool

After lots of thinking over the years and more recently. I am so excited to say that we will probably be homeschooling our little guy next school year. Now starts the curriculum process!

What has kept me from the absolute thought of it recently? Fear. I am overwhelmed lately with all the things I am doing. So much so that I'm not even sure if I can do it all. I'm teaching (on-line and independent study) 15 credit hours, taking 12 credit hours, doing two other jobs for the college, getting my business going and trying to make my stay at home mom job the number one priority. Where would I fit homeschooling in?

Then I realized it is just for a season of my life. The classes for myself will end in the spring. The teaching is suppose to end in the spring. But even if it doesn't I have the on-line course work put together and it will be all that easier, than now when I'm starting from scratch. My business will be past a certain hurdle and I can just work it a couple days a week--at night.

I can't even begin to explain how excited I am to put all my knowledge to to use in my home! Excited for all the new adventures, adventures in homeschooling!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Camping 1.0

This weekend we took our first camping trip. There's a lake about an hour away that we've never been too. A friend of my hubby's told us it's a great place to camp and they do it often. So we borrowed their tent and hit the road.

Did you know that:
1. It's hot outside even in September
2. The ants in the woods are HUGE!!! I thought I despised little black ants...
3. Camping is not cheap, especially the first time you go
4. Tents take forever to set up and take down
5. Daddy Longlegs are really gross in the woods. They have red bellies instead. (If they are not daddy longlegs please don't tell me!)
6. Having to maintain the pit fire while my hubby and oldest son, T, went fishing made me cringe. I am just not good at that kind of thing.
7. While waiting for the boys to return I imagined a snake slithering outside my tent and pocking it's head into the flap. So I immediately zipped up everything I could to save ourselves.
8. I prayed for the rain storm that was suppose to come because it was so stinking hot out there. (Upper 80s isn't bad except I'm in a/c all day everyday at home...)
9. Only used the restroom once while we were there. That is a major feat for me who always (and I'm not being too dramatic here) always has to go!
10. The air mattress we bought was clearly smaller than the Queen size it stated. Not to mention when you sit on it, you sink to the bottom. 
11. We've decided unless we have a camp spot with electricity or a camper, we are not going camping again for a loooong time. My suggestion is when the kiddos are in their teens and we go in November when it's cooler and the bugs are hibernating.

Unfortunately, we only made it about 10 hours camping. We were all excited, got everything set up, the boys went fishing while myself and H took naps and then our experience was over. We all felt yucky, wanted a shower and to be in our cool home.

We packed up our vehicle during dusk and headed straight home. Two days later only a fraction of the vehicle is unpacked. I've still got to get the fishing poles and some camping gear out of the trunk. We are all feeling a bit under the weather, but enjoyed our "first" camping experience as a family.

The Jeep also enjoyed it's first outing in it's natural setting. It's like it was made to live out there in the woods. So pretty, but I know it's happy to be home as well!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My mind is yucky!

This evening is night I was my son's diapers. Yes, we do cloth diapers and I do love them!

As usual, I went into the laundry room, took out the diapers. The covers were hung up to dry and the inserts put into the dryer. While I was separating them I thought one insert looked a little dirtier than usual, but since I didn't use extra detergent this time around it would be close to normal. Then it hit me, had I even washed them? Yes, I had done the rinse cycle, but did I even put detergent in? No, no I didn't.

What made it worse was I actually smelled an insert on the way to the dryer. I now want to scrub my nose off.

The joys of laundry and having too much on the mind to not even know if the laundry is clean before drying it!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Faith

Faith is a subject that is taught quite a bit in the church. Obviously, it's the basis for our trust in God and all that he is. I've grown up in church and have made it my basis for my life. Without God, I truly don't know where I would be today. What would I be doing today? Would my life be even half of what it is?

Last week I felt strongly for the first time to just wait on God for an answer. The first day was rough. I admit it, but it kept me seeking Him for an answer. Then it was as if I was to continue to wait day after day until the answer was to be made. I agreed. Then on day three it was as if God said 'it was done.' The seeking Him and His answer was to come and I could continue my life as normal.

Let me be clear. I didn't "hear" God audibly, nor did He write His words down on a piece of paper. It was that I felt compelled to take a certain time of my day and just listen. Let other things be on the side (tv, reading, etc). Then there was a peace after wards.

It wouldn't be until yesterday when we truly had the answer. It was such an amazing feeling! Though the answer wasn't exactly as we would have liked, it still has blessed us and we are extremely grateful. God has this timing thing down and along the way he teaches us to be faithful to Him. Without faith we can't truly let God into our lives. He wants to do more and we must trust Him with every little detail.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Struggling with Discipline and Childhood

As my gets older and older, I'm finding myself struggling. Being a former elementary teacher I'm quick to keep children on task but still make life fun and enjoyable. Yet there are times that I'm not sure it always translates really well to the home.

Keeping T on task is not a problem. The struggle I'm feeling is where does my teaching him to become a great person meld into him just being a kid? I want him to have fun without always having strict structure. Sneaking on the bed and jumping up and down. Eating a Popsicle outside in the summer. Some things that are part of being a kid!

In the near future we are taking our first camping trip as a family. Well, technically it will be my first camping trip--ever--as well! I'm nervous because of the bugs, the sleeping in a tent thing and so on. Pretty much I'm a stay inside and enjoy tv or games or whatever instead. Yet I think this is another aspect that T and H need to experience in their life. It may be a little early (4 years old and 8 months old) but they will have these memories of their childhood forever.